July 2007, Weight Loss Journal
1 July 2007
Weight: 171 (lost 29 lbs.)
BMI: 31.28
I'm getting so tired of this up and down cycle. During the week, I'll weigh myself and see the numbers in the 160's, but on weigh-in day, it jumps up to the 170's. I'm sure it's all just water, but it's very annoying. At least I'm not hovering around 175 anymore; at least it's around 170.
Yesterday, I got to go walking again for the first time in two weeks. I couldn't go for a nice long walk during those weeks because my husband was out of town, and I had no one to watch the kids while I was out. I have a hard time taking the kids with me because they don't walk as fast as I need to, and whining, fighting, and "I have to go potty," don't make the walk pleasant. When I take my kids on walks, the event turns into a neighborhood stroll, which is nice but not much of a workout.
So while I was on my walk, I decided it was time to start jogging again. I was actually quite impressed by how far I was able to jog. It's a good feeling to know that I can run a bit if I have to, such as for an emergency.
This morning, I did yoga to strengthen my legs. Last week I did one session of lower body strength training, but it wasn't yoga, and it was BORING, even though I did it while watching one of my favorite tv shows. So this week, I decided to do it yoga style. It was much more fun. I'm looking forward to doing my next lower body yoga session this week. I think I'll do all of my strength training sessions yoga style.
15 July 2007
Weight: 173 (lost 27 lbs.)
BMI: 31.64
The past couple of weeks, I must admit, I completely neglected my diet. I completely ignored calories restriction, portion size control, and constant snacking. So the question is why?
Honestly, I just got tired of not eating what I want when I want. At my neighborhood's 4th of July party, I wanted to eat every delicious thing that was there, and I wanted big portions. At my daughter's birthday party, I wanted to eat cake and ice cream (which isn't a big deal), and then I wanted seconds. I wanted to eat several handfuls of chips. I wanted to eat bowls of cereal as snacks. I wanted soda, milkshakes, and root beer floats, I wanted to eat and eat and eat. My appetite was never satisfied.
I would eat a huge healthy dinner and still feel hungry afterward. I started thinking that maybe I was eating the wrong foods. Maybe my body needed more fiber, so I would eat high fiber cereal. Maybe I needed sugar, so I would have something sweet. Maybe I needed more protein, so I would eat scrambled eggs. Before I knew it, I had eating two or three extra meals.
On top of that, during the last two weeks, I've been sick, but I don't know exactly what I have. I've been very tired and sometimes lightheaded. My back aches, and I've had this pain in my left thigh. It would get worse when I stood up or walked, so I didn't do any exercise during the last week.
So I'm creeping back up. If I keep on this way... I'll have to get rid of my size 14 clothes and move up to size 16. I'll have to work twice as hard lose the weight a 2nd time. If I let more fat collect on my body, it will drain my newfound energy and stamina. I'll look like I did in that before photo I took of myself at 180 lbs. I'll feel like a failure, and I'll hate myself for not taking care of this body, the only body I have, the only body that will allow me to play with my kids or at least spend time with them. If I don't take care of this body, it will die too soon.
I think I need to be more strict with myself. I need to start planning out what I will eat every day rather than following my hunger. I need to start making an appointment to exercise, and if I can't do my normal routine, I need to figure out something new. I need to recommit myself to this goal. I have to.
23 July 2007
Weight: 172 (lost 28 lbs.)
BMI: 31.46
I wasn't able to exercise much this last week because I was still dealing with pain. However, it seems that the pain was related to my reproductive system (like a PMS session that lasted weeks instead of days, ugh!), and it's better now, so I'm hoping that this week I can start anew.
So here's how I'm getting back on my weight loss program.
- Weigh myself every morning, so I can start my day reminding myself that I'm working toward a healthier weight.
- Create a daily menu for myself every day and only eat from that menu (no unscheduled eating; it's my biggest diet problem).
- Yoga before lunch every day. (I have learned from experience that I'm just not awake enough to do it before breakfast. I'm just not a morning person. But lunch, I can do that.)
- Walk ever day that I can, and do power yoga, stationary bike, and/or step bench on the days I can't get out for a walk.
- Drink lots of water and decaf tea. (For the last two weeks, I had been drinking 1- 2 root beers per day. It's 140 - 280 calories I could have easily avoided every day.)
Let's see if the scale goes down another pound (again!) this week.
...by Feed